Wednesday, July 9, 2008

empty nest, empty heart

This roller coaster doesn't seem to stop. With C2 off to camp for the week, and C1 at work all day, this house seems so empty and lonely. I of course could be doing so many projects, oh maybe something like work on getting a job maybe? But I just can't seem to always find the motivation.

C1s back has been killing him for days, so finally we gave in and started hunting around for a new matress- not a fun task- actually it's quite aggravating. But, in some ways I feel like I needed to be doing it. Sometimes making a major purchase helps me get focused. After I don't knwo how many days and stores we finally settled one. It arrived tonight so we'll see in the morning whether the therapy worked out.

I found a little motivation to then make our room look good, and the old bed actually come sin handy in the "guest" room. I was doing OK when it all of sudden made me realize that I WOULDN'T be setting up a baby nursery in the near future. I hate when that emotion catches me off guard.- feeling like everything is OK and then POW- there's that horrible sinking feelign again.

To make myselffeel better I used teh few ounces of motivation in me this morning to pull out some weeds and to get some paint on our porch. Poor, sad porch.

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